simple wishes

I want to watch 50 first dates while eating  chips and ice cream and drinking cokacola or I could have a movie party , invite some people and order pizza .

I want to spend a whole day out till after midnight .

I want to get a box of chocolate , not any chocolate . I want maltesers , mars , twix , M&M's and cadbury .

 I want to see fire works a lot of them .

I want to get a box of scented candles . and of course I want world peace .

an idealist speaking her mind

everything is tasteless , nothing drives you , all pictures are the same colour , all songs say the same words , you feel empty , you don't know who you are anymore , you wish you can go back in time to meet the old version of you and ask it what happened ? what could have possibly happened to make you no longer able to recognize your own reflection in the mirror ?
 Was life that cruel ? is reality that hard to handle? are you sad because you changed ? do you hate your life for changing you or do you hate people who compelled you to become a different person just to be able to live among them ? since when you know hatred ? you never hated anything before .
you wish you can get back o the old you , you wish and I wish too .

a little pessimistic idea :

while I am watching moulin rouge , the only thing I could think of is this is not real . this would never happen in real life . you would never find such love . you will never feel such a passion in a relationship , the problem could be you and if it is not you then it would be the other person because you will never find someone who is willing to give without taking who would love you unconditionally . simply because your parents and your dog  are the only people who will love you unconditionally even your cat won't love unconditionally .

If you haven't watched these movies , you missed a lot :

Must love dogs

        you are a unique constellation of attributes; you are my Halley's comet .

You've got mail

                                          love around the corner .

Moulin rouge

The greatest thing you will ever learn is just to love and be loved in return .

 

 

The lake house

                                          Time is just a small detail .

Serendibity

                         If we are meant to be together , we will be together .

Sweet november

                         November is all I know, and all I ever wanna know.

ponophopia

to get hurt by things that usually doesn't bother others doesn't make you weak  . it only means you are sensitive .
to get hurt and don't show it , to hide your pain and pretend that you are just fine to the degree that makes others around you believe you are happy  is strenght .
those who hide their pain only wants to be normal  , they try not to be different because they don't want to be judged . they are afraid to get hurt by that judgement .
poor people .

an unedited ,a completely random post :

I haven't written  for a while , well it's a very very long while . I don't know why but i am sure that something is wrong. i don't feel right maybe because i no longer spends much time alone. i love and i used to spend time by myself and it really made me feel great . now i feel that life is too fast for me, like if i can't cope with it any more. time passes and i don't even notice. when i had a job ( i quit my job a month ago because i got bored ) . my day went like this  wake up , go to work , eat , face book , TV , more eating , sleep . without the job , you could just delete the ( go to work ) part . that's it , no more no less. for nearly 3 months i have been doing nothing , no reading , no writing, no sudoku besides i am gaining weight . it's like  i have no desire to do or learn anything new , it's kind of losing motivation only living by the basics, like if I don't mind to die today, but still believe that life is beautiful so i decided to change all this.
 i will write something and post it here every day .
 i will read every day ( actually i have just started reading twenty love poems and a song of despair written by pablo neruda ) .
i will play sudoku and mahjong titans every day .
i will learn a new word in Italian every day
i will learn to do something new with paper ( the origami thing ) every day .and at last but not least , I am going on a diet and i will find some time to spend by myself and I will try to get out more . I really hope this would work for me , i hope it would make me feel better .

creativity is healing

I don't get the inspiration to write unless I am sad . i haven't written for a long time  , this is a good thing , right ?
It's like that to be an artist is to suffer . it's when you are really down , you start to look for something to use to express yourself , to let all these feelings out ,  to find yourself a way out of this suffering ,then the magic happens and you just get burst into a wave of creativity and you come up with something original . it's yours , you made it . this makes you feel very powerful and then you find yourself coming out of that gloomy state and the world just get brighter .
creativity actually is a an action of healing .

mini mini poem

hours are too long
you are so far away
my heart misses you
love stinks any way