love ???

they asked three kids about what they think love is , the first one said "Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."the second one said "When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you" and the third one said "Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."I tried to answer that question and while trying I remmberd matilda from the movie leon when she was talking to leon and said she is falling in love with him and leon asked her" How do you know it's love if you've never been in love before? " then she said Cause I feel it,In my stomach. It's all warm. I always had a knot there and now... it's gone.then I thought that these answers aren't enough then right away I thought of the movie love story and its famous quote " love means never having to say you are sorry " . then I thought maybe I should come up with my own answer, not taken from a movie or a song so my answer to that question { what really is love ? } would be

" love is finding a piece of yourself that you didn't even know it was missing ,it's like you were complete but now with love you are perfect "

but I have to admit that the best answer I have ever heard was from Ashton kutcher when he was playing simon green in the movie guess who when he said "she's everything I'm not. You know, she's my other half. Without her I'm not whole. You know the thing about meeting your other half is you're walking around, you think you're happy, you think you're whole, then you realize you ain't shit without her. Then you can't go back to being just a half 'cause you know what it's like to be whole."well , I guess all these answers are true . there can't be wrong or right answers, each one of us can describe how he feels in the way he wants . each one of us has his own definition of love. Don't wait someone to answer that question for you .

There is no spoon

under the apple tree , I set there to see
the beauty of the world around me
blue butterflies dancing in the air
swimming in the sun rays , making golden waves
small ballerinas wearing silk dresses
landing on flowers smelling the essence
I close my eyes , I listen to the air
just ask , I shall take you anywhere
I say no , I wanna stay in reality for awhile
It's a fine place for living if you do have the desire
reality isn't too bad , it's full of beautiful things
why the glass is always half empty , that's our curse
there is no spoon , it's all a state of mind
half full , half empty, it's whatever you decide .

The english patient

"She died because of me , because I loved her , because I had the wrong name"

count laszlo de almasy

we need flavours

we are the victims of our fears , our mind monsters , this is the irony that finally kills us. it makes our lives flavorless very diluted with water . by time we are conditioned to believe that flavor is dangerous and pure water is safe , it is safe but dead . in life you need to take risks , make mistakes , get hurt , learn and be happy . we need to feel all the available emotions in life because then is when we would be really alive .

who am I ?

I'm my fiery resentment
I'm my forced silence
I'm my complete lack of surprise
I'm my sense of fantasy
I'm my perception of reality
I'm my vivid dreams
I'm my perfectionism
I'm my feeling of disappointment
I'm my random thoughts
I'm my screams of pain
I'm my lonely quill
I'm my mysterious eyes
I'm my sad look
I'm my need for help
I'm my resistance to authority
I'm my cold blood
I'm my hidden emotions
I'm my captured hatred
I'm my wooden mask
I'm my weak hopes
I'm my lost wishes
I'm my long search
I'm my missing answers
I'm my wrong questions
I'm my only friend

one of the Schizophrenic conversations that I'm always having with myself

I : I hate myself
Myself : No , you don't
I : Yes I do , I am a pathetic loser
Myself : Don't say that, you aren't a loser
I : Everything I do is a fail , why nothing goes right ?
Myself :It happens to everybody
I : No it doesn't , it happens only to me
Myself : No , it's you who focus on the bad things
I : You don't know anything
Myself : You know what , you are totally right , you are a loser and I don't know anything
I : how dare you say such a thing about me ?
Myself : Can we quit that conversation and think of something positive ?
I : I feel so sad , I don't know why , do you think I'm away too sensitive ?
Myself : sensitivity is a good thing
I : It doesn't work where we live
Myself : It's okay to be different
I : I wish I can handle pressure better
Myself : You do that but in a different way
I : That way makes me suffer , it has a bad effect on me
Myself : you are in a serious need to relax
I : You are right
Myself : I'm always right .

The need to be understood

I read a lot of INFP profiles and I always found that we usually are not understood and I felt that it's something not nice and people loves to be understood , I thought of myself am I not understood ? Do I feel like people don't understand me ? what understanding really means ? why people complain about it ? if being understood means that people knows what you think , how you think , what your motives really are, Doesn't that makes you predicted ? Why do you wanna be predicted any way ? then back to the question ''Do I feel like people don't understand me ? '' well , I don't know when was the last time I had a deep conversation with any one, I rarely talk about things that interest me because I'm the only one who is interested in it , the only common thing between me and my friends is that we go to the same college ,so does that make me not understood ? actually YES , I wanna someone who can shares me my thoughts , someone who thinks that books and movies are the greatest inventions in history , someone who loves to listen to jhon lennon and old music , someone who thinks that fight club ( the movie ) supports nihilism , someone who classify people according to the MBTI just for fun , someone I can talk to about george berkeley 's theories and philosophy . I need someone who understands me . and after some serious thinking yes it's annonying if no one understands you and being understood doesn't have to mean that you should be predicted , actually understanding people comes in many levels , it starts with what is common between each other and comes to the ultimate level of being so open to someone you choose and become predicted to him. this is the only description of understanding I reached , I'm not sure if there is any further explanation. if there is ,I really wanna know about it .

theme song of my life

The Weepies - Nobody Knows Me At All