precious :

when you watch this movie , you will realize that , there is more important things in life than how my wedding is gonna be like? or omg I missed watching titanic in 3D .
you will come to realize how lucky you are with this life you have just as plain as it is .
if I could meet precious face to face , I would tell her " go and have a good life because you deserve it" .

an idealist speaking her mind

everything is tasteless , nothing drives you , all pictures are the same colour , all songs say the same words , you feel empty , you don't know who you are anymore , you wish you can go back in time to meet the old version of you and ask it what happened ? what could have possibly happened to make you no longer able to recognize your own reflection in the mirror ?
 Was life that cruel ? is reality that hard to handle? are you sad because you changed ? do you hate your life for changing you or do you hate people who compelled you to become a different person just to be able to live among them ? since when you know hatred ? you never hated anything before .
you wish you can get back o the old you , you wish and I wish too .

an unedited ,a completely random post :

I haven't written  for a while , well it's a very very long while . I don't know why but i am sure that something is wrong. i don't feel right maybe because i no longer spends much time alone. i love and i used to spend time by myself and it really made me feel great . now i feel that life is too fast for me, like if i can't cope with it any more. time passes and i don't even notice. when i had a job ( i quit my job a month ago because i got bored ) . my day went like this  wake up , go to work , eat , face book , TV , more eating , sleep . without the job , you could just delete the ( go to work ) part . that's it , no more no less. for nearly 3 months i have been doing nothing , no reading , no writing, no sudoku besides i am gaining weight . it's like  i have no desire to do or learn anything new , it's kind of losing motivation only living by the basics, like if I don't mind to die today, but still believe that life is beautiful so i decided to change all this.
 i will write something and post it here every day .
 i will read every day ( actually i have just started reading twenty love poems and a song of despair written by pablo neruda ) .
i will play sudoku and mahjong titans every day .
i will learn a new word in Italian every day
i will learn to do something new with paper ( the origami thing ) every day .and at last but not least , I am going on a diet and i will find some time to spend by myself and I will try to get out more . I really hope this would work for me , i hope it would make me feel better .

long story made short

I take it all into my depth
there's nothing else left to be said
my heart can bear more than I guessed
there is nothing more for me to be felt .

Zoolander

Derek zoolander :

Have you ever wondered if there was more to life, other than being really, really, ridiculously good looking?

Love means .....

Love is finding a piece of yourself that you didn't even know it was missing .
Love makes you complete without it , you are just a half and when you find out how it is to be a whole , no way you could get back to be a half again .
Love gets you speedy heart beats and butterflies in your stomach .
Love is finding someone to drees up for in the morning .
Love makes you sing all day and never notice that you are continously smilling .
Love means that you can't wipe that smile off your face .
Love gives you a reason to face life .
Love is what keeps you moving on .

me vs me

I know who me is , I just don't know how to be her. everytime I find a mould to shape myself in it , the mould cracks and I leak out from it.
It's like I'm having too many sides and each one is struggling for survival and all this is killing me one stap a time and I'm bleeding to death

we need flavours

we are the victims of our fears , our mind monsters , this is the irony that finally kills us. it makes our lives flavorless very diluted with water . by time we are conditioned to believe that flavor is dangerous and pure water is safe , it is safe but dead . in life you need to take risks , make mistakes , get hurt , learn and be happy . we need to feel all the available emotions in life because then is when we would be really alive .