an idealist speaking her mind

everything is tasteless , nothing drives you , all pictures are the same colour , all songs say the same words , you feel empty , you don't know who you are anymore , you wish you can go back in time to meet the old version of you and ask it what happened ? what could have possibly happened to make you no longer able to recognize your own reflection in the mirror ?
 Was life that cruel ? is reality that hard to handle? are you sad because you changed ? do you hate your life for changing you or do you hate people who compelled you to become a different person just to be able to live among them ? since when you know hatred ? you never hated anything before .
you wish you can get back o the old you , you wish and I wish too .

an unsent letter to you my love :

dear love
dearest love
my love :
                   Do you know how much I love you, how many times aday I think of you ?
every time I talk , walk , work or eat . you are always there . you are the first thought think of when I wake and the last thought in my head when I sleep , even my dreams , you occupied them all .
Do you know how much I miss you  , how much I long for you ?
I wish if I could lock you in my heart. call me possessive , I don't care .
I want you to be mine forever , we can't be separated, you are a part of me now. I can't live without you , maybe I can but what kind of life would that be ? I know I would become numb with nothing to feel , I would never be happy , I would never be the same . my heart would be deeply wounded and even if it healed , it would leave a scar . a scar that time can't erase , a scar engraved on my soul .
I pray we always remain together , till death do us apart .
                                                                                            

                                                                                            yours, the always faithful .
                                                                                                                                      

He said , she said

He said :

I love you

She said :

you should be , I'm loveable

My first poem , Walking through the night :

walking through the night
trying to reach the light
while I walk my path
there are thousand things to pass
I walk the path alone
away from my comfort zone
my fears around surrounding me
trying to reach my identity
run , hide , escape if you can
i am just right here where you stand
my soul screams leave me alone
I am away too far from my comfort zone
away from you , i shall never go
within you the power that makes me go through
I walk & walk with a whisper in my ears
the wind tells me to ignore my fears
demons and angels I see in the sky
good versus evil , a story of life time
walking on a road upon its sides
closed doors and no one in sight
broken bones screaming in pain
asking for relief but in vain
I scream and say , what can I do ?
a graveyard they say shall do
a graveyard I built for all the broken bones
now they are relieved and so is my thoughts
to continue the road , it won't be hard
the distant rays of light shall be my guide
the rays of light clearly I can see
calling me to come for that ecstasy
now the road has come to an end
the end of my journey , the end I deserve