to you my love :

a sweet fragrance came from far away
carrying a scent of you , just like snowy days
a deja vu of northern lights and snow flakes
a mix of cherries , chocolate and milkshakes
unearthly , unworldly that's what you are
a cluster of stars sparkling in the sky
I dream of a day , hopefully not far
when I call you home and you say you are mine .

I love ...........

Quiet mornings
Noon naps
The smell of rain
Midnight snacks
My warm blanket in winter
Muffins
Poetry and Movies
Waking up to find out I can sleep more
Starry nights
Procrastination
The cold side of the pillow
Teddy bears
Cotton candy
the fifties music
Long walks by myself
Daydreaming
Sweet surprises
Perfumes and candles

denial painted

Eyes and tears painted red
a letter in a hand
unread
Doubts and pain painted black
Fear too painted blue
a message unread in a wooden box
left there to become dust
a thousand wishes were wished to be true
not everything you want
comes to you .

an unsent letter to you my love :

dear love
dearest love
my love :
                   Do you know how much I love you, how many times aday I think of you ?
every time I talk , walk , work or eat . you are always there . you are the first thought think of when I wake and the last thought in my head when I sleep , even my dreams , you occupied them all .
Do you know how much I miss you  , how much I long for you ?
I wish if I could lock you in my heart. call me possessive , I don't care .
I want you to be mine forever , we can't be separated, you are a part of me now. I can't live without you , maybe I can but what kind of life would that be ? I know I would become numb with nothing to feel , I would never be happy , I would never be the same . my heart would be deeply wounded and even if it healed , it would leave a scar . a scar that time can't erase , a scar engraved on my soul .
I pray we always remain together , till death do us apart .
                                                                                            

                                                                                            yours, the always faithful .
                                                                                                                                      

our lives in an hourglass

Today we are alive
tomorrow we are forgotten
we live by an hourglass
under the veil of full trust
that time is ours and we shall not be dust
that tomorrow is coming just to feed our lust
but the sand is slipping grain by grain
emptying our souls till we are fully drained

long story made short

I take it all into my depth
there's nothing else left to be said
my heart can bear more than I guessed
there is nothing more for me to be felt .

those hazel eyes

I made a promise not to cry
since then my tears are dry
I keep my sadness inside of me
it piles up as much as it can be
I watch in silence
the bloody rays of the wounded sun
I wait in patience
for the starry nights that are yet to come
hazel eyes with locked up tears
eyes didn't cry for too many years

Stop judging people . Give them a break .

Do you even know me ?
I really don't think so .
You pass your judgement ,
like Mr I know it all .

Did you give me time ?
Did you let me expose myself ?
How do you even know
that I'm showing my true self ?

Do I care for your opinion ?
I really don't think so .
your opinion is yours
it has nothing to do with me
at all .

Love charm

Take from my hand
the glass you've always desired
drink it drop by drop
till you become my martyr
drown in the sea of your lust
come to me for more
my love is air to you
to your lust I am the shore .

Green trees , red hearts

Green trees , red hearts , black grief , white starts .
blue peace , brown eyes , yellow fear , orange skies .
pink roses , purple charm , silver moon , gray lies .

inspired by

green trees , red hearts by Nat jay

a memory imprisoned

A photo in black and white
with many secrets to reveal
capturing time and place together
watching us from a veil
a memory imprisoned in a tiny frame
winning a battle against time
holding on to what was gone
to what we left behind 

The I that's me

I write poems to express the way I feel
I feed on air , it doesn't matter if I had a meal
I walk barefoot and I hate wearing high heels
I am a wooden toy craving to be so real
I am a little afraid of what reality stores for me
I need some help . I just wanna be out of here
so save me please then I will owe you one
I am getting old , can't waste any more time

love story

Chambers of my imagination
are full of pictures of you and me
of what could have been between us
if you weren't what you turned to be
sweet lies you told me
faked dreams you made me see
all are engraved in my heart
hidden under an oak tree
memories about you
sometimes come back to me
but the heart that loved you is dead
a poisonous potion set me free
I've a new heart now
growing
like a flourishing tree .

My escape

I wanna hide from you
close my eyes tight so you won't see me through
I won't show up again unless I become new
Washed from all my sins and pain
sparkling like a diamond in blue
I swim in my ocean so I won't reach your shore
I'll always be there
driving you
away from my core

Somewhere

Somewhere only I know , somewhere I can be me .
draw on the sun , dance on the moon .
walk on the sea , climb the trees .
somewhere I can fly , reach for the sky .
somewhere not on a map , covered in black .
hiden from eyes , whitened by tears .

I see

beauty in the beast and no one to see
graves on the green desperate bleeding scenes
loud words from sewed up lips
strong legs taking shakened steps
innocent souls burning in hell
evil eyes running from guilt
mystic smiles on child like faces
wishing utopia to have here bases

I want to be me

A bitterness you feel in the morning

wishing if you can't wake up

there must be a reason for it

it does not go away no matter what

I shouldn't be here but where else to be

I want to be real , I want to be me

fact about life

drifting towards a conclusion of how things should be
roses must age and make a truce with bees
the sun comes and goes leaving us behind
giving the moon a chance to tell us when it would shine
it takes time to rise again to erase wonder of our minds
teaching us a fact known since the begining of time
nothing stays the same, everything should change
we live in a world of variables where the only constant is the change

My if world

Escaping to the if world , where everything is possible
Changing my reality and live the impossible
Waving my magic stick so every wish come true
Sprinkling the fairy dust , believing this magic will do
Smelling vanilla scent , I reach imagination land
Here with my illusion beyond what you understand
In if world where puppets come to life
Where nymphs on rivers waiting to take a dive
Through this new frame of vision where everything is bright
I see smiles all around shinning in the light
Through this rose coloured glass lens where everything shines and glows
I see boys and girls waiting thier turns in the long adventure rows
In this blue horizon where all the ground is green
That's only seperated by the quiet water streams
I wave my magic stick and sprinkle the fairy dust
To spread the white hope, ,that in here is a must
I wipe away all tears from the crying faces
Healing all the broken promises that were once taken
In the if world , wearing your skin alone makes you complete
Everything in here you own , there is nothing else you need
Where all the boys are kings and all the girls are queens
Wearing purple gowns , daring the time stream
If you ever needed me just call out my name
In imagination land you will find me on a task of building a way
That will connect the fantasy world to reality where you live
Reality that can be changed with the power of the word if

so far this is my favourite poem I've ever written

It was a dream

I went to bed at night
with one thought in mind
am I going to die tonight
I raise my hands and pray please god let me live another day
there is still a lot of parts I wanna play
sleep captures me and say in my world you are away
in this shroud you shall stay
bright light I see that nearly blinded me
I try to rub my eyes but my hands I can't see
my hands are behind my back, chained by a rough rope
I'm down on my knees now trying to feel the road
I hear heavy steps coming along the way
with eyes making holes in the back of my neck and not going away
I turn and see nothing but a crow flying over my head
maybe all this will go away,I don't have a hint
I close my eyes and open them to find myself stuck
in the same time same place , this is my bad luck
what you see is true , a tall man speaks
dressed in black gown with only hands it reveals
wearing velvet gloves trying to reach my face
follow me I shall get you out of this place
I follow him and find myself enfolded by the night
walking on dead corpses and the ground I can't find
at a silver gate we stopped to enter a new place
my statue stands in the midst , I'm inside a maze
drowned by my tears, shattered visions appear
the heavy steps are back surrounding me with fear
I'm your wasted time look at me to see
how incomplete you made me , forgiveness you can't seek
is you all I have left ?
sorrowfully no , I'm here to give you a gift
today is a present enjoy it while you can
to lose it too you can't withstand
I promise I'll make the most of it all
there will be no wasted time at all
I wake up to find myself in bed
thinking about the gift I'm about to get
thank god for this new day
don't waste it and say it's just another day