an unedited ,a completely random post :

I haven't written  for a while , well it's a very very long while . I don't know why but i am sure that something is wrong. i don't feel right maybe because i no longer spends much time alone. i love and i used to spend time by myself and it really made me feel great . now i feel that life is too fast for me, like if i can't cope with it any more. time passes and i don't even notice. when i had a job ( i quit my job a month ago because i got bored ) . my day went like this  wake up , go to work , eat , face book , TV , more eating , sleep . without the job , you could just delete the ( go to work ) part . that's it , no more no less. for nearly 3 months i have been doing nothing , no reading , no writing, no sudoku besides i am gaining weight . it's like  i have no desire to do or learn anything new , it's kind of losing motivation only living by the basics, like if I don't mind to die today, but still believe that life is beautiful so i decided to change all this.
 i will write something and post it here every day .
 i will read every day ( actually i have just started reading twenty love poems and a song of despair written by pablo neruda ) .
i will play sudoku and mahjong titans every day .
i will learn a new word in Italian every day
i will learn to do something new with paper ( the origami thing ) every day .and at last but not least , I am going on a diet and i will find some time to spend by myself and I will try to get out more . I really hope this would work for me , i hope it would make me feel better .

Love means .....

Love is finding a piece of yourself that you didn't even know it was missing .
Love makes you complete without it , you are just a half and when you find out how it is to be a whole , no way you could get back to be a half again .
Love gets you speedy heart beats and butterflies in your stomach .
Love is finding someone to drees up for in the morning .
Love makes you sing all day and never notice that you are continously smilling .
Love means that you can't wipe that smile off your face .
Love gives you a reason to face life .
Love is what keeps you moving on .

what IF ?

captured by the most terrible two words ,What If ?

that was a line from the movie the time machine . it got stuck in my head since I first heard it , I thought about that question a lot and what could be the possible answers , it's countless , the possibilities concerning a certain issue , it is what makes us move on , go forward , give us motivation . on the other side , it's the source of our fears , it prevent us from making actions or take important decisions , it hold us back . wether it moves you on or holds you back , it's up to you , it's your decision you can take risks and go for what you believe will make things a lot better or you can do nothing and stay on the safe side and thats depend on the situation you are handling , you weigh the good possibilities and the worst scenario that could happen and according to this you decide . the bottom of line you always should look at the bigger picture , enlarge the zone of your thinking , this is how you solve your problems easily and avoid further troubles .