it has been a while since i logged onto my blog , so long that now i am married and have a four months old boy  . i am just writing  for the old days , i know that no one would read this anyway

precious :

when you watch this movie , you will realize that , there is more important things in life than how my wedding is gonna be like? or omg I missed watching titanic in 3D .
you will come to realize how lucky you are with this life you have just as plain as it is .
if I could meet precious face to face , I would tell her " go and have a good life because you deserve it" .

Midnight in paris

I have not enjoyed a movie like that in a while . I actually enjoyed this movie so much , that on a scale from 1 to 10 , I gonna give it a full 10 .
to be honest when I first decided to watch this movie , it never came to my mind that it will be about time travel , but it is .
when gil ( owen wilson ) went back to 1920's and woke up in the next morning in our present time ,I thought maybe he was just drunk , he was hallucinating , it can't be true , but when you go deep watching the movie you realize that it is true , everything is true , and then there is my favorite moment at the 65th minute of the movie you find out that he is actually mentioned in an old book , he was actually there .
owen wilson played his role so well , he is the perfect actor for this role, and you can also feel woody allen's character in jil . it is so obvious if you are familiar with woody allen's work.
the movie wants to come with a conclusion that no matter what era you are living in, there will always be a golden age you wish you lived in .
I don't know but we seems to believe that our past is much more better than our present and I have no idea why .

to you my love :

a sweet fragrance came from far away
carrying a scent of you , just like snowy days
a deja vu of northern lights and snow flakes
a mix of cherries , chocolate and milkshakes
unearthly , unworldly that's what you are
a cluster of stars sparkling in the sky
I dream of a day , hopefully not far
when I call you home and you say you are mine .

Happiness is

and then I lived happily forever after .

25 movies that will make you happy :

50 first dates

the wedding singer

little miss sunshine

the breakfast club

under the Tuscsan sun

the mask

yes man

forrest gump

the terminal

he is just not that into you

the hangover

julie and julia

amelie

I love you , man

four weddings and a funeral

some like it hot

planes , trains , and automobiles

tootsie

when harry met sally

500 days of summer

my big fat greek wedding

the out of towners

analyse this

the royal tenenbaums

 the darjeeling limited

simple wishes

I want to watch 50 first dates while eating  chips and ice cream and drinking cokacola or I could have a movie party , invite some people and order pizza .

I want to spend a whole day out till after midnight .

I want to get a box of chocolate , not any chocolate . I want maltesers , mars , twix , M&M's and cadbury .

 I want to see fire works a lot of them .

I want to get a box of scented candles . and of course I want world peace .

an idealist speaking her mind

everything is tasteless , nothing drives you , all pictures are the same colour , all songs say the same words , you feel empty , you don't know who you are anymore , you wish you can go back in time to meet the old version of you and ask it what happened ? what could have possibly happened to make you no longer able to recognize your own reflection in the mirror ?
 Was life that cruel ? is reality that hard to handle? are you sad because you changed ? do you hate your life for changing you or do you hate people who compelled you to become a different person just to be able to live among them ? since when you know hatred ? you never hated anything before .
you wish you can get back o the old you , you wish and I wish too .

a little pessimistic idea :

while I am watching moulin rouge , the only thing I could think of is this is not real . this would never happen in real life . you would never find such love . you will never feel such a passion in a relationship , the problem could be you and if it is not you then it would be the other person because you will never find someone who is willing to give without taking who would love you unconditionally . simply because your parents and your dog  are the only people who will love you unconditionally even your cat won't love unconditionally .

If you haven't watched these movies , you missed a lot :

Must love dogs

        you are a unique constellation of attributes; you are my Halley's comet .

You've got mail

                                          love around the corner .

Moulin rouge

The greatest thing you will ever learn is just to love and be loved in return .

 

 

The lake house

                                          Time is just a small detail .

Serendibity

                         If we are meant to be together , we will be together .

Sweet november

                         November is all I know, and all I ever wanna know.

ponophopia

to get hurt by things that usually doesn't bother others doesn't make you weak  . it only means you are sensitive .
to get hurt and don't show it , to hide your pain and pretend that you are just fine to the degree that makes others around you believe you are happy  is strenght .
those who hide their pain only wants to be normal  , they try not to be different because they don't want to be judged . they are afraid to get hurt by that judgement .
poor people .

an unedited ,a completely random post :

I haven't written  for a while , well it's a very very long while . I don't know why but i am sure that something is wrong. i don't feel right maybe because i no longer spends much time alone. i love and i used to spend time by myself and it really made me feel great . now i feel that life is too fast for me, like if i can't cope with it any more. time passes and i don't even notice. when i had a job ( i quit my job a month ago because i got bored ) . my day went like this  wake up , go to work , eat , face book , TV , more eating , sleep . without the job , you could just delete the ( go to work ) part . that's it , no more no less. for nearly 3 months i have been doing nothing , no reading , no writing, no sudoku besides i am gaining weight . it's like  i have no desire to do or learn anything new , it's kind of losing motivation only living by the basics, like if I don't mind to die today, but still believe that life is beautiful so i decided to change all this.
 i will write something and post it here every day .
 i will read every day ( actually i have just started reading twenty love poems and a song of despair written by pablo neruda ) .
i will play sudoku and mahjong titans every day .
i will learn a new word in Italian every day
i will learn to do something new with paper ( the origami thing ) every day .and at last but not least , I am going on a diet and i will find some time to spend by myself and I will try to get out more . I really hope this would work for me , i hope it would make me feel better .

creativity is healing

I don't get the inspiration to write unless I am sad . i haven't written for a long time  , this is a good thing , right ?
It's like that to be an artist is to suffer . it's when you are really down , you start to look for something to use to express yourself , to let all these feelings out ,  to find yourself a way out of this suffering ,then the magic happens and you just get burst into a wave of creativity and you come up with something original . it's yours , you made it . this makes you feel very powerful and then you find yourself coming out of that gloomy state and the world just get brighter .
creativity actually is a an action of healing .

mini mini poem

hours are too long
you are so far away
my heart misses you
love stinks any way

I love ...........

Quiet mornings
Noon naps
The smell of rain
Midnight snacks
My warm blanket in winter
Muffins
Poetry and Movies
Waking up to find out I can sleep more
Starry nights
Procrastination
The cold side of the pillow
Teddy bears
Cotton candy
the fifties music
Long walks by myself
Daydreaming
Sweet surprises
Perfumes and candles

I made this one myself :

denial painted

Eyes and tears painted red
a letter in a hand
unread
Doubts and pain painted black
Fear too painted blue
a message unread in a wooden box
left there to become dust
a thousand wishes were wished to be true
not everything you want
comes to you .

an unsent letter to you my love :

dear love
dearest love
my love :
                   Do you know how much I love you, how many times aday I think of you ?
every time I talk , walk , work or eat . you are always there . you are the first thought think of when I wake and the last thought in my head when I sleep , even my dreams , you occupied them all .
Do you know how much I miss you  , how much I long for you ?
I wish if I could lock you in my heart. call me possessive , I don't care .
I want you to be mine forever , we can't be separated, you are a part of me now. I can't live without you , maybe I can but what kind of life would that be ? I know I would become numb with nothing to feel , I would never be happy , I would never be the same . my heart would be deeply wounded and even if it healed , it would leave a scar . a scar that time can't erase , a scar engraved on my soul .
I pray we always remain together , till death do us apart .
                                                                                            

                                                                                            yours, the always faithful .
                                                                                                                                      

If I could go back in time

Regret is something new to me . I can't remember that I've ever regretted doing anything before, even if it had bad consequences , I took responsibility for it . the damage was only to me and no one got hurt , but now I know regret and it's awful especially when it concerns someone and not just anyone  , someone you love , someone you never wanted to hurt . maybe regret is new to me because love is new to me .

our lives in an hourglass

Today we are alive
tomorrow we are forgotten
we live by an hourglass
under the veil of full trust
that time is ours and we shall not be dust
that tomorrow is coming just to feed our lust
but the sand is slipping grain by grain
emptying our souls till we are fully drained